Friday, September 12, 2008

Lost in a sea of people? Yeah, I can relate. When have I ever fit into any group? Where have I ever been able to be in complete control of myself? How do I know who I truly am if I'm a different person in each environment? I know who I want to be but what does that matter if I can't ever break out of my cage?

It kills me that I can't speak my mind. I am stuck within myself and I wish I could be free.

What is it that makes me want to be like everyone else? Is that really what matters? Maybe being trapt is just part of who I am. But I don't want it to be. I want to be able to say and do what I want to do no matter who is watching.

I'll never get what I want. I'll continue to try but I will always be stuck. At least I can count on that. I will always be the one who doesn't fit in with the group. The quiet awkward one who just isn't normal. The real question is, will I ever exept it?

1 comment:

Lexi Lou said...

Wow Maish, powerful words. You should take what you wrote here and turn it into a poem. Just to let you know, if you're ever lost in a sea of people when I'm around, just come slap some sence into me. -Lexi