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I actually acted mostly normal in front of Adam today. I'm so proud of myself. Maybe I am getting over him. Or maybe it's not that I'm over him. Maybe it's just that I'm not craving for his attention every five seconds. I feel somewhat good about myself for once. My confidence is actually getting better. I don't know what caused it but I hope it lasts. I'm still not exactly happy with my life and I'm still lonely but at least I'm starting to be confident. It feels so good! I love my friends and I love that it's fall. I love the way the leaves sound when I step on them and I love the color of the trees. I love the mountains and the way they're turning pink. I love seeing the birds migrate and I could die for the sound of the wind blowing through dry leaves. I've never loved fall so much in my life. Summer is still my favorite but I feel so good right now. I hope it never ends.