catching you up

As you can see from the poem below, I'm not over Adam yet. I don't think I ever will be. But oh well. I'll just have to accept it and move on as well as I can. I'm trying to destract myself by liking this other guy who rides my bus. His name is Jacob. He has really tan skin and green eyes that are beyond gorgous. The most I've talked to him about is music though. I want to talk to him again but I won't be able to see him till monday. School is stressing me out a lot. I'm worried about not being in concert. If I don't get my grades up I won't get to be part of it. That would suck. I don't think I'm going to do dance company next year. Dance just isn't the same when your soul is broken. I can't really dance anymore. At least not like i used to. I'm slowly getting worse as my life gets worse and so far my life isn't getting any better. I don't think I can be repaired. I think I'm stuck like this until I die. Oh well, at least I have god. He'll fix me. I know he will. I just have to be patient.